As mentioned...

I need a place to rant and rave...to just let out steam with only some of my closest friends knowing exactly what is going on with my life.

I can't go on like this anymore.Nearly cried when I was talking to Sam (my outlet supervisor at ICB's),on Wednesday.I really cannot stand the fact that here I am trying so hard to get things done and on the other side,no one seems to wanna cooperate with me.Then why should I be Miss Nice Little Girl?Everyone in the company calls me "Ah girl" or "Xiao Mei" or something to that effect. Ok if you choose to call me that but I'm still the goddamn Marketing Executive right?Quit treating me like a little girl!I know I get really crazy at times and I'm always giggly and laughing (like what Tanan always says,"Joey so cute ah...always so happy and giggly..."),but yours truly isn't always so happy all the time.

At least I try to be happy just becoz there are so many things in my life that's not going exactly right.I can be really nit picky if I want to be ya know.

As for my love life,*sigh*. I started dating when I was 13. After 10 years I met my first bf again on the streets and he was so super excited to show me to his friends I felt kinda freaked out. After all's been said and done I'm back to square ichi.Now I dunno what kinda cesspool I've gotten myself into.

No offence sweetie but I feel pretty taken for granted at this very point in time.

How can it be that I can feel so strongly for a guy, all I ask for is just for him to show me that he appreciates my presence in some way or at least tell me that after all this time,he still wants me beside him, yet feel so taken for nought all at the same time???

All I ask is for you to tell me you still want me to be with you through it all and I'll gladly do so.

Like what I did in my year long r/s with my ex. I stuck it out with him,at the astonishment of my friends who know I've never been a gal who sticks things out with a guy.And a year long too!That's a feat even on my terms.

So you see,I can be as persistent (or stubborn,in my dad's words),as a bull if I choose to be.And I'm choosing to be one now.

For you! Good god....

I know you're busy and I never once disturbed you (well maybe just that night on the 3rd day of CNY),and I do feel I deserve some kinda recognition for that?

Ok I'm sorry if I sound like a pathetic fool but I guess that's just the way life goes.

Ladies and gentlemen,welcome to my life.

Signing off,
Tolora