I went to Liana's wedding on Saturday morning. It was a church wedding and I managed to snap a few pictures while the ceremony was taking place.

But you know what? I cannot remember which picture belongs to which segment of the morning. Haha. Coz I couldn't zoom in enough to get very clear pictures.

But it was a beautiful day for a church wedding nonetheless. Met some JC schoolmates there which was great! Jiajie,Joanne,Justina,Michael...it felt really really good. Justina and myself were talking about how Liana used to say Justina would be the first to get hitch coz she was the first to get a boyfriend in JC and Justina and myself would rebutt and say, "Ehhhh sekali Liana get married first" and see what happened!

Jia jie asked who would be the next. The answer is obvious isn't it? I'm nowhere there to getting hitched man! Haha...Dun even know if this relationship I'm in now will last till that stage.

The bride was beautiful,the groom...well...well groomed. Everything went nicely. I was happy coz Bao was with me. It really meant alot to me for my boyfriend to be there with me to witness a good friend's wedding. It meant so much to me that I actually told him how thankful I was TWICE. Ok I know how un-Joey that sounds but I guess I'm getting older and more sober.

Am now awaiting Joy's call once she's done with dinner. Will be heading out with Orange for some kopi or something. I actually rejected a drinking session tonight with Haslan for a very simple reason: I know he's interested in me and I'm NOT. The next reason is purely personal. I just don't wanna see his face if I can help it la.

My family's on a 4 day cruise which they conveniently only told me AFTER their China trip. Gosh. Didn't even ask if I wanted to go. And I WANTED to go. I need a break and I really really feel like quiting my day job right here and now.

That's how tired I am.

It's like no matter how much I do,at the end of the day,I get a "You're not doing enough. Your performance is still way below my expectations." What's a girl to do? I need someone to tell me that. If this goes on any longer I think I might need a pyschatrist.

Where's the love man? Arg.

I really feel like I'm at my lowest point now. Dunno why I decided to enter a r/s at this point but I did and now,even though everything still is fine and dandy,I'm beginning to enter the realm of self questioning. Did I do the right thing? I feel like shit. I want out of everything. I wanna just disappear from Singapore for some time and get away from it all.

Tomorrow's Monday again and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get another round of shit from people.

Everytime also lidat. Sian already.

Signing off,

Tolora