How is this even possible right? Well it is la and it's happening to Yours Truly.
So here's the story:
About a week ago my famly celebrated my bro's 25th birthday with what was suppose to be a quiet simple dinner at eM by the River. During which,they were introduced and hello-ed to some familiar faces and some foreign ones.No one attempted to buy any poison for my bro and he thought he was safe. Then I suggested we head down to dbl 0 for some drinks after that. My mum, being somewhat of a weird shizophrenic persona(pardon the bluntness but she can be like that when it comes to drinking away from home), vehemently objected to the idea, stating that my bro had to go home to study(that had to be the most absurd reason she has given since the day I was born).
Of course my dad wanted to go. My dad loves his cuppa more then once sometimes. So the debate started and finally, we ended up in O bar,much to my mum's dismay which she cleverly hid behind those long sighted glasses of hers.
See the thing is,and the main point of the story is, I haven't seen my boyfriend since my birthday and it worries me on one hand but totally irks me out on the other. No calls,no "how are you/how's your day" smses from him, nothing, nadah, zilch. In these close to 3 weeks I have been trying to find a reason to stay but to no avail,except for the way I feel about him which,only my family and gal pals know, is not enough.
(You know I'd rather think about when we'll be going to Japan again right? Haha...)
And during these 2.75 weeks, I met someone else. Also in the nightlife industry but totally smitten and totally showering me with the attention and concern I so crave. Nothing much of a looker, is kinda short but I guess he's pleasant enough. He makes me sit up and pay attention when we talk about serious stuff. He's got the ching but you can never tell just by looking at him. So simple to understand and yet, he came only at this point in my life when I'm fighting an almost losing battle.
We women, no matter how strong or detached we seem to be, or believe ourselves to be, are still softies and can never resist the allure of a man. I'm not belittling any woman when I say this but if you think about it,it's oh so true. But I believe that how we handle the different relationships in our lives really depends on how much experience we have garnered over the years.
Tan once said to me:
" You are amazing the way you are always so detached in your relationships. How do you do it? How are you able to remain so calm all the time? I've never seen you cry and get all emotional after a break up."
I never use to be like that. I use to cry after almost all my relationships when they ended,even if I was the one who wanted out. There was always a reason for me to be upset,somehow. But over the years, and after countless flings and dates, I've learnt that men are like saru. Primal. No matter how smart a man, he thinks with his other head 98% of the time. Those who don't may never have a Father's Day. That's hard and painful facts that every woman in the modern world should drill into their heads.
Anyway, back to my point. Yes I met someone else and he's totally into me. I'm not bragging. Just happy that I'm still worth something in another person's eyes and perhaps,heart. Then I got myself thinking," Should I stay and wait for a guy who only contacts me when he feels it's time to do so or when he feels obligated to do so or should I open my heart to a guy who really wants to have a future with me?"
Then comes the superficiality of it all. Who will gimme better looking kids? LOL!
I'm just kidding. But honestly,if it were you, who will you choose?
And then, by some unseen force of nature, Leona Lewis's "Forgive Me" plays on the radio and the lyrics are sooooo uncannily similar to my situation that I nearly screamed.
Anyhow, I'm super hungry now and I need fuel. Lunch! Going for shabu shabu with my family. Yosh~~~!!!!
Oh yes! Nearly forgot something. Yip's and DY's comparison Fang Kong look photo!! Check it out!
Signing off,
Tolora
"There will always be a rainbow at the end of every storm."
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