I'm glad I finally met him last night.

Told Tan that I was afraid I wouldn't be able to control myself when I saw him but when I did,I surprisingly did not feel as overwhelmed as I thought I would be. In fact I thought," Aiya I probably should have met Noel earlier. Abit wasting my time to meet bao.

Shocking right? I thought so too.

Anyway,my heart officially died for bao last night when he told me he didn't know if he still had any feelings for me. It just didn't make any more sense for me to continue living in the past and knowing full well he'll probably give me all sorts of excuses as he has always done.

But now I start to feel myself moving on. I'm starting to notice things and people around me and opening my heart once again,slowly but surely. I even started to notice Noel a little bit more when I met him last night.

And for the first time after the break up,I felt relieved and happy.

I don't feel a need to contact bao any more. I actually wanted to delete his number from my phone but thought we are technically still friends so I won't do that just yet. Maybe I'll do so when I meet someone else. Someone whom I know is the right one for me.

For now, career comes first. Am gonna go through some changes very soon. Kinda freaky considering I haven't changed jobs in nearly 3 years but when it's time to go,it's time to go.

Signing off,
Tolora