Have a little patience

Having more patience for better things to come.

When I look at elderly couples, I cannot help but think of how my grandma and grandpa use to be when they were alive. Both of them passed away in a mere 6 months apart from each other. My grandma use to complain to me about my grandpa, saying how much she detests him and hopes he dies fast. When he did, she went into mourning, putting his pictures in every corner of her home and apparently dropping tears at the mere mention of his name. Then she left us 6 months later.

When she was alive, I never thought that she would ever leave me. Till I realize I was getting on in years and so was she. My only regret was that I never told her how much she meant to me until she was bedridden and had just a thin wisp of life left in her. By then it was already too late.

But I never regretted the amount of time I spent with her. We had so many meals, so many outings together. We brought her to nice restaurants, to nice countries. Everyone found her a dear coz she doesn't have any qualms talking and mingling with people whom she just met. In a way I take over her traits in this aspect. I'm so good with people.

I look at her pictures now and then and reminisce. I miss her with all my heart and she will always be deep inside my being. I drop tears for her once in awhile coz she was just so dear to me. But I know she's somewhere better and her pain is all gone. She's probably doing the jiggy now. If only I could see.

As for my life, I'll take it a step at a time. Every step is going to be a challenge but I know I wanna overcome all these challenges for her. So I'll face every trial like it will cost my life.

Tolora