Irony

Just as things were starting to pick up,shit HAS to happen to bring it all crashing down.

My family,the one people I most trust,turned their backs on me at the very last moment,citing a past mistake I did which cost me (note:the $4k was from MY account.MY savings.), some 2 years ago. Some random accusations that were totally baseless were spouted (the most ridiculous one being me being already sick of my current job and wanting out),which left me all drained and listless.

A promise that she would top up whatever I had by the time of my Japan trip was smashed right in front of me.They said,"You wanna go for the trip,YOU find a way to get the money.If not,you can forget about going.Just stay in Singapore and work.I don't even understand why your company will allow you so many days off."

What the fuck.

You can imagine the look of horror on my face when they said that. Can you imagine if I only asked them about the money 3 days before my trip?Where would I get the extra cash?Sell ass also take time leh.

She threatened to call my 2 babes to tell them about my"stupidity" and "folly". Such naivety! You can tell by now that I'm not too shy to post this coz it's not my fault.I had the notion all along that I would be subsidised at least for $1,500 for my trip.

Till I had to resort to borrowing from a friend.Such a nice fella.Knew him since dunno when.Lent me $800 with no interest and no ulterior motives.

Which means I'll have at least $2,000 to spend in Japan which is a tidy sum.Not luxurious enough but will do.I can't ask for more.Coz $600 has to go into my accommodation.

Which basically makes this entire Japan trip a self-subsidized trip.Can you believe it?No money at all from my parents.All my own and of coz,$800 from outside sources.But I had to ask for it myself.

In a funny way,I'm proud of myself.It just shows that after 25 years of my existence in this so-called "close knit family",none of them actually know me well at all.They don't even know what kind of a person I've become since I left school.

I still can't believe I had to rely on an outsider during this very urgent period of my life.

Says a lot.

Signing off,
Tolora