2009 is gonna fly by just like that.

It's already the end of January...freaky man...

So much shit has happened over the last couple of weeks. In the office that is. Still can't quite get over the disappointment I feel.

It has to be understood that I've been with my company for the past 1+ years and have never complained about the nonsense that goes on within.

But fate is always cruel. Coz now I'm stuck in a cross fire between 2 ladies (this is all corporate), and I look like a stupid idiot in front of my directors.

I'm so sick and tired. Sick,tired and jaded. I don't really care anymore when people tell me I should reconsider my want to go to Japan to teach.

To reiterate, it's NOT about me being obsessed with Japan and wanting to go there just coz. It's about fulfilling a life long dream that I've been having since I was a wee teen.

Anyway, there's nothing much in Singapore (save for my great galfriends and perhaps bf and family), really worthy of me to stay on for. I'm not getting any younger so it's now or never. We'll see how long I stay in Japan for.

But the first step is to ace that interview. I've never been more sure about any decision before.

And yes just for the record,I'm not basing my decision to stay away from Singapore coz I'm trying to hide from reality. I'm going away for a breather.

Signing off,
Tolora