First I'm hooked on Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance". And then I'm suddenly hooked on Leona Lewis's "Happy".

I just wanna be happy.

Somehow I feel like I haven't been truly happy lately. It's been awhile since I've been really really happy with the way my life was going. Simple bottomline satisfaction is the most that I've achieved.

Feeling pins and needles all over my body today. And the weather being so chilly does not help one bit. Diarrhoea-ing since this morning. Pukey. Dry mouth. Basically feeling like a sack of bad potatoes.

I was fine last night. Had a great time with Yip in dbl 0. Shared a Blue Mountain with Justin but all it gave me was gastric. Grr~~... No more fried food for me in the wee hours of the morning though. Learnt it the hard way. I'm seriously old.

It's not that I don't wanna have people around me but I seem to be lacking a lot of me time. It's terrible coz I don't even have the time to just sit back,relax and think what my next step in life should be. Sometimes I just wanna stone in a corner without being distracted by anything pertaining to work or life in general.

I told my mum awhile back that if I have the chance,I'll hope to just go away on my own for a couple of days. Just be on my own for awhile in a beach side resort or something. Think I'll spend my days staring out at the sea and just taking the time to breathe.

It's very sad when a 27 year old starts thinking this way about her life. Yes I'm 27. I've crossed over to the dark side of the late twenties. Shit.

My health is deterioriating and my life is slipping away slowly but surely. I'm tired. I want out.

Signing off,
Tolora