I've been away for awhile. Been crazy neck high in work coz my boss isn't around. And you'd think I was enjoying the freedom.

Nah.

Anyhow, things between me and Big One seem to be getting better after the last time we met and I talked. I asked him, in all seriousness, if he was serious about our relationship, he said yes, became really sweet to me which kinda scared me alittle coz I thought that was a prelude to him telling me he wants out, and then holding my hand and telling me that he really loves me and wants to be with me.

And before I could go on thinking what a moron and jerk he was by saying those things just to make me happy, he tells me this:

" Oh! Remember I told you I wanna go do a course in being a tour guide so I can leave this industry? I've gotten headhunters to look for day jobs for me and once I leave EHG,I'll go look for one myself coz I'll have more time."

Sigh. How to not melt you tell me?Tell me how to leave this guy now?

In all honesty, I don't know if it's coz I came into his life at the right time (just as he's about to leave this industry), or if he's doing it for me. I'm guessing it's a mixture of both but I'm not gonna be too overconfident here. It could jolly well be the first reason full speed ahead.

And after our last meeting, we seem to be keeping in touch more often. He called me this afternoon and said he'll like to meet me tomorrow as he's off. I have an event so I said I'll call him when it's done and meet him after that. He was telling me about how he has to do set up on Saturday and work on Sunday and how he's forced to go to TT's place on the 3rd day of CNY which he says he isn't going coz he needs to go visiting. Then he did it again. Told me," I can't make it to see you on Valentine's Day. I gotta go visiting in the morning and then rush to work after that." Well, I guess that's understandable. Assured him it's alright coz he needs to visit and work.

So yes I'll be seeing Big One tomorrow.

How about Small One? I just met him for dinner.

Fantastic right? I'm comparing la. But in terms of who I feel more strongly for, I think you can tell. Don't ask me why. It just is. Although my mum is tending more towards Small One (it is a fact he treats me better), I'm still looking forward to seeing Big One and being close to him.

The bad boys are always catching my eye.

And today, I finally feel how close I am to the pips in ICB. Nick came up to me in the office and told me he'd call me should they go out for drinks on the 3rd day of CNY. Next Big One called me and talked to me about ICB. I can practically work there already coz I seem to be let in on so much of their secrets. Amazing.

Suffered from chronic diarrhoea the whole of last week. Now suffering from cough and flu. When will this ever end?

Got 1.5months bonus!!! Yippee! I can go for a good holiday again!!!Can't wait can't wait! Where shall we go next? Where shall we go next?

Ok I need to go have some egg tarts from KFC and then take my medicine and sleep. I've been on a all-pills diet for the past 2 weeks. Gosh.

Signing off,
Tolora