Negative? Moi?

Yes! Desperately so! Guys never understand why girls get so obssessed about their looks, weight, skin, hair and nails. When I was younger I always thought to myself,"Aiya...no need to think so much. Just be yourself and people will be attracted to you for your rays of confidence!" Thank goodness I did not continue thinking this way into my adult life.

There are a few things which I get really conscious about and am trying to improve about myself such as my scaly skin, my jelly belly, big arms and thunder thighs. Woe be me when I suffered a sudden bout of eczema during my teens and instead of going away, it morphed into this skin condition called Keratosis Pilaris which, in layman terms mean, chicken skin. I have done almost everything from picking at them to applying creams prescribed to me by doctors to TCM but to no avail. A final revelation from the last skin doctor I saw who said this condition is very common in people who live in tropical climates and it's incurable, made me put down all my expensive guns and turn to the affordable bath loofah to make sure my 'scales' don't get worse. Now at least they seem relatively under control.

There was a time I was so slim I weighed only 47kg. I know it may sound a little obsessive but I actually loved the figure I had at that time. My dad hated it though. I could walk into any shop and put on any piece of clothing I wanted and it would fit or be loose. My tummy was so flat and my arms and legs slimmed down too. Currently I'm a whopping 56kg and my tummy is so flabby, my arms so huge and my thighs so huge, my shorts don't fit any more and I have to wear loose fitting tops to cover the fats. It's totally demoralizing. So in order to be able to start fitting into my clothes and wedding gowns soon, I have decided to put myself on a no carb(or at least minute amount of carb), diet for a week or two. I call it my detox program but it's really to starve my body for a few days just to make sure all the fats get used up for energy burning and I lose the flab. I hope my arms and legs slim down too in the process.

I would love to be able to fit into kids' clothing and flaunt a flat tummy even when I'm out casually. I want to be able to put on tiny shorts and not look like I'm squeezing myself into them. I want to be able to put on a bikini and look awesome.

And seriously, I don't mind smaller boobs. They have been quite a bane especially when I try on nice pretty clothes not catered to busty women.

Will update my progress again in a few days and see if I will indeed lose the weight. I'm really exercising crazy self control so wish me luck!

Tolora