Sometimes I hate being a woman.

Why was I born a girl? Why wasn't I born a guy instead?

Sigh. I miss him. Still.

I dunno if I miss him or miss the feeling of being close to him. Saw him on Wednesday and immediately knew it was a mistake to see him again.

I nearly wept outside Que Pasa in my high stupor.

Luckily Justina, Nic, Terrence and Noel were around. It lifted the craziness I was feeling inside for a bit.

I feel so tired. Tired of all the mundane-ness and nonsense around me. I'm freaking 27 years old but am nowhere close to being where I wanna be.

So stupid. Sometimes I just wanna knock myself out and be blissfully unconscious for a few weeks. Call me dumb but I just need that reprieve.

So looking forward to my trip to Bali. Sometimes I feel grateful to my parents for letting me be a grown up. I'm travelling on the 26th March and my mum messaged me on Thursday to say that she has booked a trip to Chiang Mai with my dad on the 24th March and they'll be gone till the 28th March. Which gives me 2 days before my trip alone with just my bro and my dog. Woots~~!!! Makes me feel like I'm in control of my life.:)

Going to Stereolab and Zouk tomorrow. This Cosmic Gate better be good coz I only dance to fantastic trance.

I finally am back on track with my beauty regime - Ginvera Marvel Gel, Ten-O-Six and Olay. It's so simple yet so effective. I was regularly going through this regime when I first started in EHG and my complexion was super clear. Not a spot of blemish even without make up on. I could dance the night away without reapplying my make up and I'd still look good after that.

I began to miss those days a few weeks ago and went on a shopping spree to get all the items to clear skin. I'm on my way! Wait for me nice skin!!!

Everyone around me is saying Noel is interested in me. Tan is going crazy trying to convince me that he is. Even my mum is trying to tell me that he is. But honestly, I'm not feeling anything. I dunno if it's just me or if he's really not interested but what Tan says makes absolute sense.

He wouldn't be meeting me every other day if he wasn't right?

Oh what the heck. I'm just too tired to think about anything now.

I'll save some energy for another post.

Signing off,
Tolora