Love hurts

The constant bickering(and sometimes fights), I get into with my mum, the pain inflicted on me when I choose a wrong partner to be in a relationship with...Does love really have to hurt to feel good?

In the end, don't we all want the same thing? To be happy. The majority of us will know that we cannot have it all so we seek the simple pleasures in life to make us feel fulfilled and whole. For me, it's the looking forward to my dog's warm welcome home at the end of each long day and the warmth of my family that keeps me going.

I was talking to Yip today and realized something. Something so dark about humanity that no one ever wants to speak about outwardly. In every single one of us, we have this black mass that thrives on all our bitterness and all the sins you can think about. It grows bigger and blacker everytime we indulge in our bitter and perverse side and when it gets too big, it explodes and this darkness lives inside us for the rest of eternity. How can someone be so full of hatred for someone she barely knows? It's almost like walking up to a stranger and cursing the poor bugger for no rhyme of reason. It's definitely mental but just in a more subdued way. But it doesn't escape the fact that this person who is causing my good friend(actually more like sister), so much pain is a nut case who desperately needs help with her head, her temper, her mouth(used for more things then one), and possibly even her sense of logic. I don't really have to talk about the rest of her body coz she's probably putting certain parts of her anatomy to good use now as I type this post. Bah!

Coming to terms with myself growing up and having to be mature never really occurred to me till probably late last year. Maybe it was because I started receiving alot of red bombs at that point of time and decided that maybe it's time for me to find someone to settle down with. So here I am! Hopefully this time round, I will have made the right decision. After so many trials and obvious errors, I really hope love doesn't disappoint me once again.

Going crazy coz of the heat. It's burning all of us up!

I need to get some aircon NOW!

Tolora