Being alone

Sometimes I just want to be left alone. As in alone to do my own thing even if it's to sit in front of the television and stone. But I think I've been too nice over the years. So much so that people like my family, albeit me already spending every waking moment with them for a good week, still insist on me being with them even after the trip. And when I say I just wanna be alone to do my own thing, they grumble and say I'm waiting for phone calls.

Which part of "I just wanna have my own time" is not understandable?

And I get even more irked when they say things like "Your character lidat I dunno how people around you can stand you" and "I'll tell the guy you are dating how screwed up your character is. See if he still wants you."

Seriously like WTF.

I'm cranky becoz 1) I haven't taken a dump in 2 whole days and I'm feeling super bloated, 2) I'm feeling frustrated becoz of the damn hot weather and 3) I just want my own time to do my own things so just shut up and move on.

Of coz not forgetting the fact that I don't know when my bf is going to contact me again seeing how his internet connection seems to drop in and out at its own will.

As much as I enjoy family time and all that, I think I'm old enough to get some me time and some room to make my own decisions without being shot down each time I bring them up. One thing that is making me quite concerned though is the fact that, despite countless hints that my parents should just go on trips on their own and not count me in for all of them, my mum still is trying to arrange trips with me way in advance. Honestly, I'm not too keen to go on trips with my family anymore. At least not for the next few years. I'm more keen of doing so with my friends and perhaps better half. Think it's really high time for them to open up more and treat me like the adult I am.

Geez.

It's not easy being the nice one all the time. It's damn tiring and one heck of a dirty job.

I need to lose weight and tone up. Damn irritated with my flabby tummy and fat arms. My neck and back are killing me. Seriously can't wait to get to Bangkok and do super cheap and super good Thai massage.

Oh yes and a 6 day cruise...isn't such a good idea afterall. Don't really know what to do after awhile. 4 days is perfect.

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