Arg!

One day before my company trip, I fell bitterly ill. I thought I would get better after some rest but it dragged on and half killed me for 2 whole days when I was in BKK. On the night of my D&D, I could not have enough of my favourite soft shell crab and sambal kang kong dishes coz the crab made my throat itch and the sambal had the same effect, making me cough non stop till I had to finish off a whole bottle of mineral water before the cough subsided. I looked like a walking bacteria. The night before my D&D, I went to Khao San with some of my colleagues and got a freaking painful sore throat. It was so bad that even mouthing words was hard and hurt so bad. I couldn't swallow my saliva even. I had to resort to a road side pharmacy for antibiotics. I knew I was taking a big risk but luckily I recognized the antibiotics from my clinic assistant days.

So there goes the story of my sick days in BKK. Now that I'm back in SG, I had a chesty congested cough for almost a week, waking up in the middle of the night coz I was coughing so badly. I went for a BBQ last night and woke up at 3am this morning to throw up. Took a huge dump in the morning and then again when I got into the office. Threw up a second time just about 10minutes ago. I have a serious appetite lost and my head feels swimmy. My dad thinks I'm exaggerating the seriousness of my illness. I feel like a freaking pregnant woman. And since I got home last night, I have been feeling moody. Didn't wanna talk and I didn't put on any make up when I came into office today. Basically feel like shit.

I think it's a culmination of many things. Not just my illness. I'm starting to feel dreary about my job and thinking more seriously about where I wanna be in the next 2-3 years, not just in terms of my personal life but also in terms of my career. At this very moment, marriage is not on my mind. I wanna move somewhere in my career first before embarking on plans for that part of my life. I think it's time for me to move on. This job doesn't seem to be going anywhere for me and I honestly have had enough of the late nights and alcohol. I don't think having the priviledge of signing people into dbl O and buying drinks for them on my tab is a big deal anymore at this point in my life. I need more credible benefits and more grown up ones at that.

Tolora