Cold rainy day

I always fancy myself all bundled up in front of the TV with a good show(True Blood preferred!), and a mug of hot chocolate while cuddling and getting cosy with a nice guy.

But since the guy part is non existent, I shall content myself with a nice cup of milo and some dry biscuits with strawberry jam tonight in front of my lappie watching Modern Family.

And speaking of Modern Family, it is so simple but so outrageously hilarious! It kinda reminds me of my own family, save for the dysfunctional part. Then again, they aren't exactly dysfunctional. Probably just...an organized dysfunction. hhaahah....What did I just say????

Just learnt that a friend's grandma has passed on. I never liked comparing my situation with others but after losing 3 of them in a matter of 6 months, I can safely say I fully understand how someone feels when he/she loses a grand parent. Actually losing the first 2 wasn't that bad. I mean it was sad but it wasn't like over the top jialat. Only when my paternal grandmother passed on did I go numb. I look at her and remember the days she use to look after me and make sure that I had all(almost all), I wanted and needed. I grew up a happy bouncy child. When I was in my teens I never in my whole life expected I would ever lose her. Until I did. And also realized that I'm already closing in on my big 3-0.

She always wanted to see me happily married and she always commented on how lovely it would be if she could see her first great grandchild. But she never got the chance to. And somehow a small part of me feels it's partly my fault for not working hard enough in keeping a proper relationship.

I think I screwed around with my life long enough. I use to live a day as it came. Now I seem to look further into the future.

Anyhow, I digress. My parents are having the time of their lives on board the Royal Carribean as I type. They dock at Bangkok today and Koh Samui tomorrow. After my last cruise with them, I realized I cannot really travel with the BOTH of them anymore. Besides the money, they were like little kids, squabbling, arguing, snatching, grumbling...and hungry all the time. On the cruise before, my dad literally ate till he puked.

My neck has been giving me so much problems lately. Been suffering from terrible neck aches every single morning. Gosh.

It's truly a sign of ageing.

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